Dear Boys

Dear Hot and Cold

It's been while since we've talked.

But I still think about you.

Your friend,

Sammy

Dear Water,

I like our late night talks.

They are pretty much the best.

Sleepily,

Sammy

Dear Locker,

I miss our candid chats.

I miss you telling me what I needed to hear.

Which wasn't always what what I wanted to hear.

Lovingly,

Sammy

Dear B,

You can always make me laugh.

Thank you,

Samantha

Dear Book,

It's just not going to happen.

So please stop pushing it.

Let's just be friends.

Samantha

Oh hey, Monday!

I hope you all had a great weekend! I spent mine avoiding homework and baking pumpkin cookies {yum!} I did have a small study group last night but we ended up giving each other dating advice (see my twitter feed for details on that night @MissSamanthaG). Yesterday was also the Brigham City Temple dedication which was just so great! I was amazed at how much the chapel had the temple spirit and I enjoyed listening to the words spoken. The temple truly is the Lord's house.

After my chill weekend, I am buckling down for an intense and extremely stressful week. I have a class midterm on Friday (at 7 am I might add! Who does that?!) that I feel 100% not ready for. It's for my sales class and quite frankly, I am not a salesperson. My personality just doesn't fit with the whole "Buy my product because you need it" situation. If the midterm was an exam I wouldn't be as worried but I actually have to sell a product to my professor. Ahh! And I'm not going to even mention the other projects that are due.

On top of all that, I am working close to 30 hours this week. Seriously people, I have no idea when I am going to sleep. I was just looking over my calendar and most of my appointments for the week are overlapping with each other and work and class. I am going to have to go in to work at midnight just to get all my hours in for the week.

But today I am feeling especially productive and am determined to get a list of things done before the chalk dance tonight (its homecoming week! Go Aggies!). 

On the plus side, I only need one more signature for my graduation packet. This is actually happening. I am going to be a college graduate in seven-ish months! Can you even believe it?

My point is, I can't wait until this week is over. I am determined to make it! Everyone just may need to deal with my grumpy self until this week is over and I can catch up on sleep and life... Sorry everyone! I still love you all :)

I Believe.

I believe in second chances.

I believe in sunsets and starry nights.

I believe in love.

I believe in laughter.

I believe in kisses and hugs.

I believe in truth.

I believe in fairy tales.

I believe in day dreams, wishes and shooting stars.

I believe in the future.

I believe in miracles.

I believe in forever.

I believe in Christ.

That Girl

Who am I?

I think that is a question a lot of people find themselves asking. For me, I have recently realized that I have evolved into a new person over the past few years. I am not the same person I was in high school and I use my name to differentiate between the person I used to be and the person I am now.

In my mind, Sammy and Samantha are two separate and very different people.
In high school, I was Sammy to everyone. I don't know what made me do it, but when I started college, I started introducing myself as Samantha. It was an unconscious change but I can trace my transformation back to that first introduction in my freshmen dorm. Since then, I have become Samantha and, starting recently, Sam.

I have had some amazing experiences and have met some incredible people who have made me who I am today.

Sammy
She was a shy, nerdy girl who didn't know how to act around guys. She was almost annoying naive and didn't realize all that that world had to offer. She was unsure of things and was worried about what other people thought of her. Life was a puzzle she hadn't figured out yet.

Samantha
She is a strong, independent woman. She has learned so much over the past few years and has become a better person because of it all and she wouldn't change those experiences for anything. Now she is the happiest she has ever been and looks to the future with excitement at the thought of all she can do. Life hasn't happened how she expected it to; it has turned out even better.

Back in Logan!

Busy, busy, busy!

I'm back in Logan now and it's great to be back! I've started to settle back in to school life and I'm loving it in a totally nerdy way. My social life is starting to recover and it's great seeing familiar faces again around campus. This is my last year at USU and I'm determined to make it great! I am taking 15 credits in addition to being a teaching assistant for a news writing class. It's definitely more than enough to keep my busy. But I kind of like it. I have come to the realization that this is what I am supposed to be doing right now. I get asked a lot if I am dating anyone and right now, the answer is no. And I'm okay with that. I think that will come with time. So for now, I am just busy with school and work. Oh speaking of work, I got a new job!! I was able to keep the job I had over the summer at Intermountain Homecare and just transferred to Logan when I moved back here. It's not super exciting but I am starting to look for a job for when I graduate. Which is an intimidating thought. I don't feel like I'm ready to tackle the world but I'm excited for the next chapter of my life to start.