Remember what it was like to be 7 years old? When you dreamed of the future and when you thought those teenage girls were so cool with their cars and boyfriends.They got to wear make-up, have pretty clothes and stay out late.
I remember those girls. I remember Chloe, Susan and Heidi (names have been changed to protect the innocent). They were so cool and I remember how I wanted to be like them. I couldn't wait to grow up. Because then I would get my drivers license, have my first kiss and go to high school. And then I would go to college and have a successful career. I couldn't wait for the future and actually believed that all my dreams would come true.
But I'm just now realizing that the future is here.
Driving is no longer exciting, I have graduated high school, my first kiss has come and gone, boys are still just as dumb and I am actually going to college.
The future is no longer this abstract idea. The future that I dreamed about as a little kid is here. It is very much the present and today's reality.
And the big question is: Was it everything I thought it would be?
No.
With less than six months remaining of my teenage years, I can't help but reflect on what I thought it would be and what it really was.
High school wasn't as glamorous as it is made out to be in the movies. In fact, some of my worst memories are from high school. Driving isn't exciting now as it was when I was 16 due to car payments, gas and insurance.
Now that I am an adult, I realize that I don't know and can't handle everything. The perception we get from our parents and other adults in our younger years are not exactly true. When I was younger, I almost half expected to receive this large amount of knowledge when I turned 18. Or maybe even 19. Or maybe it's yet to come when I turn 20. But adults really don't know everything.
Part of me wants to be a little kid again. Everything seemed so much simpler then.
I remember those girls. I remember Chloe, Susan and Heidi (names have been changed to protect the innocent). They were so cool and I remember how I wanted to be like them. I couldn't wait to grow up. Because then I would get my drivers license, have my first kiss and go to high school. And then I would go to college and have a successful career. I couldn't wait for the future and actually believed that all my dreams would come true.
But I'm just now realizing that the future is here.
Driving is no longer exciting, I have graduated high school, my first kiss has come and gone, boys are still just as dumb and I am actually going to college.
The future is no longer this abstract idea. The future that I dreamed about as a little kid is here. It is very much the present and today's reality.
And the big question is: Was it everything I thought it would be?
No.
With less than six months remaining of my teenage years, I can't help but reflect on what I thought it would be and what it really was.
High school wasn't as glamorous as it is made out to be in the movies. In fact, some of my worst memories are from high school. Driving isn't exciting now as it was when I was 16 due to car payments, gas and insurance.
Now that I am an adult, I realize that I don't know and can't handle everything. The perception we get from our parents and other adults in our younger years are not exactly true. When I was younger, I almost half expected to receive this large amount of knowledge when I turned 18. Or maybe even 19. Or maybe it's yet to come when I turn 20. But adults really don't know everything.
Part of me wants to be a little kid again. Everything seemed so much simpler then.
xoxo
Sammy
It's not that your dreams never came true, it's just that your dreams are framed a little bit differently now. Life is a good teacher and what was was/is important has matured and changed. Yesterday will always be a part of you, but now you realize that how you live today determines your tomorrow. For what it is worth you turned out pretty amazing and your tomorrows are looking pretty bright!
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